' VIDERI QUAM ESSE '

Have you ever perceived someone in a certain way and then events occurred that dispelled all your notions. It could have been positively or negatively. That is they seemed to be someone else and then on deeper investigation they were not who you thought?

That’s exactly what has been happening to me, in regard to myself (strange… eeh?.  In-depth thoughts have recently revealed to me that I have not been who I thought I was or at least who I project to be to the world (stories for some of these days to come).

Simply put that I have been living: “Videri Quam Esse”

  A lot of times I am good at making me seem like I have my life together; like all is well; like everything is in check even when deep within I know for a fact that it is not the case.

   I confess that on many occasions some projects have taken a toll on me; either by scope or by the amount of work. On some days I have taken up tasks when I should have boldly said no just to prove myself. Some of the time I have lied to get out of tricky situations or to make myself seem better or at par with others. Other times I have entertained vice without defending right for fear of rejection. My pride has in many instances cost me a whole lot in terms of growth and development (detailed post to come).

All this while, I have been projecting a seemingly ‘Christian’ fa├žade to the people around me (friends and family) but thankfully, God has been one whose eye does not blink and does not entertain hypocrisy. He has constantly been challenging me that His religion is about actually BEING rather than SEEMING.

I am now learning that He that saith he abideth in Him ought himself also so to walk, even as he walked (1John 2:6).

The big question is then how can I BE and not SEEM?
Otherwise said as;

How can I say the truth when confronted by an opportunity to lie?
How can I confess to an error even when the temptation to cover up is there?
How can I be humble even when pride which is of the default setting in my human DNA strives so much for the front line?
How can I not excuse myself every time for wrongdoing by blaming others or sinful nature?

2 men inspired by God give some insights:

· David, a man after God’s own heart in spite of his falls into sin says in Psalms 119:11; Thy word have I hid in my heart, that I might not sin against thee.

· Paul, once a persecutor in Philippians 4:13 says; I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Do you too desire to be rather than seem to be?
The Key for us is a daily communion with God in His word and total dependence on Christ’s strength. It won’t be easy but God is faithful to complete the good work He has started in you and I.

Live Light!

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